Thursday, April 12, 2007

I've moved HERE (click). It's mostly friends locked, for my more private entries. I will probably post very general stuff on my public entries. If you still want to read my blog entries, get an LJ (:

This blog will be kept for memories' sake.

Thursday, April 05, 2007


One of my biggest fears is to fail as a friend, to somehow unintentionally being too mean, hypocritical, two-faced, or just not good enough. I know most of the times I can say mean things, and I'm really sorry for that; I ought to think before I speak because usually I don't mean it. To all the people I've ever hurt: I'm sorry for the things I've done to make you hurt/dislike me one way or another. I hope you forgive me.

This is just something that just came to me. Nothing of significance happened recently made me say this. I just don't want to take people and things for granted, you know?

Yes and I have great friends who do special things for me, so thank you guys <3

Pictures, pictures (:






















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A pity I couldn't upload the hilarious videos of Abigail and Venny.

I really really want to talk about DJW, but there's too much to say I'm afraid I won't be able to explain everything comprehensively.

His love is SO great, oh

There's this sick, empty pit feeling in my stomach and I'm not sure what it is :/

Monday, April 02, 2007

Pictures from Thursday and Friday I will post during the weekend.

This week's going to be really bad because there's so much work and so many tests.

Yesterday was amazing. I wish I brought my camera. Thank you Joanna, Charmaine & Andrea <3
Palm Sunday - in church we had prayer walk first and it was really powerful. It just made me think of all the foolish choices I've made in my life, and how I've let myself be led astray by what I chose to do. And also, what hit me was that all the past hurts came rushing back in my head. I've always thought I had let go of them, but I realised that I had just pushed them aside and stored them in this top shelf, but when the situation called for it, the memories and emotions would come rushing back. 'Let go, let God' is what I really need to do. It's hard sometimes because I'm not sure if it's the best if I put it in His hands. In my heart I know God knows what's best for me but in my head there's a little voice calling me to the dark side. But prayer walk really affected me yesterday because the messages about choices & letting go stuck in my head throughout the day, and it still is.

After church I walked to the bust stop with Seeyue. Soon we both saw 171 and I got on. 171's supposed to go to town right, and as the bus was nearing MGS I closed my eyes for a while, but when I opened it the bus was turning into Clementi Avenue West. !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I freaked out but obviously it didn't show on my face. Thankfully the bus passed Clementi MRT and I got off there and took an MRT to City Hall to meet Charmaine, Andrea and Joanna. So I thought I was early when I reached so I went to MPH, and later Charmaine came over and met me. We walked around for a while and she was acting all weird (as usual.) and finally Joanna/Andrea contacted her to meet them at Thai Express. We went to the basement and to Thai Express where there was something at one of the chairs where Andrea and Joanna were sitting. I was going to sit at another chair but Joanna led me to the chair where there were things on. I opened it and there was this small plastic bag and a box in Action City wrapping. Joanna gave me the plastic bag and then put the Action City thing on the floor, saying it was for a Geog project (Which was on deforestation/global warming? haha.) So I opened the plastic bag and there was Potato Crisps wrapped up with a nice card on it. The message was reallly sweet. Then we ate our lunch and after we finished I said that we should leave early to go to the club. But they made up some excuses to try and stall me, haha. Then Charmaine 'secretly' asked for a lighter from the waitress and unsuccessfully tried to hide it when the waitress gave it to her. Andrea and Joanna were trying to cover something under the table while they took the lighter and finally... they took out this cute muffin with a short candle on it. According to Joanna, she saw Dick Lee previously and she accidentally hit him with her umbrella and for compensation he bought the muffin for her. It had no logic but was a cute story nonetheless. Then I lighted it and blew it out and I cut the muffin into 4. We ate it and left. Joanna and Andrea had taken their 'Geog project' out and were trying to do something with it without letting me see. I was chasing after them and Charmaine was trying to hold me back. It was a comical sight. So finally they gave it to me and apparently there was a card on it that kept falling out and they were running away trying to paste it back. It was the Action City water cooler, so cute right. Then we took the 36 to the club. And at Manzhu we did our work and other nice stuff happened & such. Then at 6 we ate our dinner there, 4 of us sharing 3 dishes. (It was insufficient.) In all I went to the toilet 4 times while I was there. Charmaine and Andrea went to the bowling alley to play arcade games and she actually helped me to carry my presents but later on left them there and remembered it only when we were running for the bus after we left the club. But Andrea didn't tell me because apparently I looked so carefree to get to the bus she didn't want to spoil my mood. Haha. Anyway we took 36 back to Marina and then I called my mum to help me get the presents from the bowling alley. By then the concert almost started but we didn't know how to get to Esplanade without jaywalking and taking a long route so we just jaywalked and Charmaine left and we got to the concert hall just before the ACJC concert started. Andrea said she saw Nick waving at me but I didn't see but anyway I didn't see him at all throughout the concert. So during the concert it was kinda boring because most of the classical tunes played by the band were very simlar (to me) and I was very sleepy by then. Joanna, Andrea and I kept ourselves occupied by finding the guy from Robbie & The Book Of Tales last time. He's in J1 now and he was playing percussion in the ACJC band. So cool right. He actually still looks the same to me. Anyway, I kept nearly falling asleep but couldn't because the pieces had so many climaxes and everytime I started falling asleep during the soothing parts, there woud suddenly be a loud climax by the gong or cymbal and I would be awake once more. The finale was pieces from Phantom of the Opera from combined bands of ACJC, ACS(I) and ACS Barker. It was really good, the best part all night. I was drop dead tired after that and I came home and slept around 12.

Today I was exhausted and my hair was gay. I was supposed to hand in Physics file and Chemistry worksheet but I did neither so I think I'm screwed.

Okay now I need to: 1. file chem 2. study chem 3. plan out history

Okay not a lot right? Byebye everyone wish me luck for surviving this week.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007


Can you believe it. I'm studying. Math. Actually Math's the only subject I enjoy studying. It's to fun to figure out answers, haha.

This week is the week of songs. Songs of longing, songs of joy, songs of God, songs of love. I'm getting familiar with the guitar too, because I printed out the chords of many songs.

PE was a nightmare today. It was worse than last week. And I have come to a realization that I'm not that fit at all. Though I run quite often, my stamina sucks. I get tired easily and I'm not a fast runner. I must work on my speed.

This blog is becoming blah. After next week when the tests are over, remind me to make a new layout, or something decent of the sort.

English this year is a bit more strict than previous years. I have to work harder.

He's a song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do.

Slowly but surely, I'm getting over it.

I think I should channel all my frustrations and sufferings into my work. You know, like a distraction. And just block out the outside world. Study, study, study. I haven't been doing that much of my life. It's hard because I don't have enough willpower. But sometimes if I'm pushed to a limit I'll drown everything with studying.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

I am nothing to you, yet it isn't your fault.

Sundays always get me down somehow. It isn't because of church. Church makes me smile.

Maybe I'm not ready for this. People I can't get close to, and things beyond my reach. It's too risky to take a risk. (Which is precisely why it's called a risk.) I might lose everything I ever had, or anything that I ever wanted or potentially had.

In DG today - we all have different personalities, so we display love towards others differently. True, so true. I've always wondered about that. How love comes in many forms.

Time to nap.

Friday, March 23, 2007

Okay now since Liz brought it up I shall blog about something that happened in church last week. I know my recount sucks but excuse me my brain is not functioning well these days.

During service Liz was pretty restless. She was doing this and doing that and moving here and moving there. (You get my drift.) Then suddenly she asked me if all boys watched porn. Uh, okay. I obviously didn't know the answer, so I said I don't know. Then she smsed Nick (sitting 2 or 3 seats away) asking, "Do you still watch porn?" Haha, note the 'still'. I read the message she sent and tried not to collapse into a fit of laughter. Still, I bet we made a lot of noise and everyone around was annoyed. Sorry. Anyway. Nick replied the most ambiguous answer ever, "huh?" And he took 5 minutes to reply. 5 minutes to think up of an answer? Surely there must me more to this, haha. After service Nick desperately tried to explain himself.. how his friends sometimes watch and he just happens to see them watching it blah blah yada yada yada...

In conclusion, all boys watch porn.

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(I know it's past 12. Take everything referred to today as Friday.)
Today started off slightly depressing. It was because of the SS test and the summary we did during English. I've had too little sleep this whole week, all thanks to my lack of time management and self-control. This was proven from the sleep survey I did, and I realized that I might have this huge problem. And it's causing my sleeping disorder and weird sleeping patterns. So yeahh. The nice thing was that I saw Step after school and she's totally changed now. Not so nerdy anymore, heehee. Must be the male influence from NJ.

After school I went out with my mum to town, didn't do much. I got my phone back from repair for the 3rd time. And my mum wants me to trade it in. She doesn't want me to get a Motorola phone ever again. Oh well.

CIP again tomorrow. We're gonna meet with the small-scale version of P. Certain people would know who I'm referring to. Another long MRT ride with around 20 stops. A good seat, my iPod and a good book would make the ride worth it.

Oh, I love AE and Urban Outfitters.